Hello all! 

I"m still kickin.  Sorry about no posting, but I've been super busy with the job.  Not that that's any suprise to you all. =(  I've been working at the Lake Manassas store off 66, exit 43.  A nice hour long drive to and from work every day. Blah.  And I went on a date with a guy not too long ago.  I also have another one on Tuesday.  Wish me luck, I really like this guy!!!

I didn't get the transfer to Fredricksburg, I"m really upset about it.  I couldn't stop crying.  Now what am I going to do?

I woke up this morning and guess what!  It was snowing!! I HATE SNOW!!!  Damn you snow!  *shakes fist at it*  Especially if I have to work that day. =(  So, to be extra safe, I left for work a half hour early so I'd be there on time.  Everyone was driving very very slow (10 mph) which was fine with me cause it was really slick.  How slick was it Cara?  Slick enough that I slid halfway off the road, then in my over correcting turned back INTO the road, spun around and almost rolled my car down a hill.  By the end I was on the side median facing the wrong way and sweating bullets, thanking the Lord that my car did not go rolling down a hill killing me in bloody agony.   Ok, that was a little dramatic, but you get the idea. 

So, first thing I do is call work (after I got my breath and stopped panicing).  I tried four times to get a hold of my boss (something must have been wrong with her phone).  Finally I got one of my Team Leaders named Mike on the phone, by then I was in hysterics because the shock had worn off.  I was freaking out and crying my brains out.  There was no @(^#($@#()& way in hell I was driving after that.  So, needless to say, no work for the Cara today.   I then called my Dad and he came to save me.  He also saved my car.  My friend Will called and checked up on me and then my sister did. ^_^

I thought about all this after I got home.  I wasn't really afraid of being dead, it was the getting dead part that scared me. x___X;;   I think I've done enough good things not to end up in a bad place.  I'm most happy about the fact that I didn't hit anyone, no one died and my car is still fine.  She's such a good car.

Oh, I am writing this now and not earlier today because I just got out of the fear induced coma. =D YAY!!!

Since this awesome guy I know post random stuff on Wednesdays I thought it would be cool if I got into the spirit and posted on Fridays.  That way those of us without live (If you work retail like I do, you know what I mean) can watch it before the weekend starts and those of us who are super cool and out doing stuff during the weekend, will have a laugh on Monday, when they have to work and I am off. =)

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This trailer spoof is the best ever!!! (well, other this next friday's)


As you probably remember, I was complaining at one time (I think it was my last post) about how horrible the movie Twilight was... well, this spoof is freakin awesome.  It follows the idea of the movie with a very silly twist.  Even if you aren't interested in the book, movie or crazy teen (and adults *blush*) obsession, this is an excellent youtube clip.  Had me rolling on the floor anyway. =P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dompotjTeIA

I'll post a real update tomorrow sometime after work and buying groceries.

Hello all.  I know, I vanished off the face of the planet, yet again, but I'm back to check in. =P  Things have been pretty interesting here.  I had a really cool birthday party (Wine Tasting and then Mary Kay ((Wish you couldda been there Sarah!! We missed you!!!)) ).  I've been having some hardships with work, but things are starting to look up again.  Had to upgrade my meds again.  Seems I need a stronger dosage, 100 mgs wasn't enough.  But, I'm better now.  Been to the movies a lot recently.  First off I saw the Punisher Movie.  It was totally awesome and not for children in any way.  Loads of gorry bloodshed and death, my kind of movie.  Next I saw was Twilight.  DO NOT GO AND SEE IT!!!! Read the book instead.  I watched the movie and it was horrible!  I don't even care about the money, I want my 2 hours back!!!  The books on the other hands are amazing, even for a tween book.  *grumbles about no sex scenes*  The third movie I saw was Bolt in 3D.  It was really really cute. =)  I really enjoyed it.

Now for the heavy stuff.  I think I am ready to date again.  Let me back up a bit first... this year I turned 25.  I decided to re-evaluate my life and see what is going on.  First off, I have a great job.  They're working with me on getting a team leader position and that will help me in turn move out and get my own place.  Which accomplishes 2 and 3 on my list.  4 is that I am very very lonely.  Not lonely in the sense that I am friendless.  So, no one freak out that I"m gonna hurt myself again, cause it's not like that.   I'm craving companionship again and think it's time to start looking for my one and only.  I think it's time to search out my soul mate and settle down.  Things are going so well for me that I can afford the time to look.  Until just recently (like this past weekend)  I started noticing guys again.  And some even interested me.  It's a huge step and I'm very happy about it.  I"m ready to love and be loved again.  I don't hurt anymore.  Things couldn't be better. =)  Now if only I could get into the holiday spirit.

Btw, Sarah, I am off the weekend after Christmas.  I am seeing Paula Sunday evening.  Think I could swing by for our powder?  Then I could give it to her when I get there.

Love you all!!

~Cara

I am in physical therapy for my wrist now.  I'm going twice a week and things are doing well with the wrist.  I'm back on regular duty at work now, so no more midday shifts, which I like.  Can finally get home in time to do stuff, not just sleep and work. 

Been having lots of nightmares lately.  I think they're stress related.  *wah wah wah bitch whine moan complain*

In January I'm going to be buying my own place.  Either a town house or a real house depending on the market.  It'll be a new life for me, a new job and new place in a new location.  It's really exciting, I can't wait to buy it, decorate it and live in it.  The idea of it makes me feel accomplished, like maybe I did something worth while in my life instead of work and work and work with nothing to show for it. *shrug*

I have some new stalkers.  Wish these guys would just give up.  I'm not dating right now and with good reason.  My heart is still broken and I'm still not 100% well yet. 

At least my medication is working now. =)  Looks like I am stopping at 100 mgs of Lymictal (mood stabalizer) and hopefully won't have to go to 200 mg like the norm.  Medication is ooooober expensive.

So, yeah, that's it.  Laters.

I don't know how my misfortunes can get any worse... then again, it could be raining. =/ 

Last week on Wednsday I sparined my wrist at work.  I was reaching overhead to get a box of chicken (weighing 50lbs) and it slipped, pulling my right hand down with it.  It twisted and yanked my wrist on the way down.  So... I went and filled out an accident report at 6:30, right after it happened.  They told me to put some ice on it and take care of it at home.  I was then put upstairs to rest it on ice, but it didn't get better.  It swelled more and then I got some strange fever from it.  The night manager recalled the nurses at Medcor and the new lady said to go to the hospital since it wasn't getting any better.  I ended up calling my dad and he took me to the ER.  We got there at 8:30 and I wasn't able to leave til 11:30.  They were sooooooooo busy!!  I made friends with this lady in the same room with me.  Turns out she lives one street over from my house and walks her dog my way every day.  I got to hold her hand while the Dr stitched up her lip (a dog head butted her and she bit deep into it).  You'd be really proud of me knowing that I didn't cry or make any weird noises.  I was completely calm and helpful while he stitched her up.  But well, even though I work as a butcher, people blood freaks the hell outta me!  x___X;;;  I can't stand it!  Animal blood is no problem.  I do feel bad when I run over animals in my car, but they don't make me cry like when I see humans injured.  The Lady (Gale)  said she was the complete opposite.  But she's a big time animal lover, so I think it really matters on who you feel the most connected to animals or humans.

I have a 5lb restriction with light duty and no pushing, pulling, twisting or repedative movement.  I can't open or close with these restrictions, which means I have mid day shifts like: 11-7:30 all week. 

Unfortunately I've missed 2 days of work (from pain)  and a therapy session (from schedule) because of this. =(

I have a follow up check up on Friday.  Hopefully they'll let me take off the brace and work normally again.

Just a little update on everything.

Oh! I ordered a new bento box last week on monday.  It should be here soon. ^_^  I really like the one I have.  Too bad it's sooooo tiny.  I mean, these things are iddy bitty!!  I'll try and post up pictures when my wrist is better. 

Night all!!

1 question.

1 chance.

1 honest answer.

That's all you get.

You get to ask me 1 question.

Any question, anything, no matter how crazy, dirty, or wrong it is.

One catch, for me at least. i will not reveal anything that will get anyone else in trouble/drag their name through the mud.

But I dare you to repost this.

And see what people ask you!

I'm trying really hard to keep this updated.  Bare with me though, i don't have a tendency to get online very often. 

Got my mood leveler medication today and some fish oil pills (BLAH!!).  My psychiatrist says that they will be a big help with the bi-polarness.  She also said I need to exercise... another ewwwwwwy.  *Rolls eyes* Guess I'll have to get back onto that evil treadmill.  Bugger. =( 

Just paid a buttload of money to the Doctor's office.  Bastards.  Geesh.  x___X   So much money!!!  At least I'm making progress and now starting to see results, thank God!

Well, I guess that's it for now.  I'm really tired, so I'll write more on Saturday or something.  Night!!

Ok, as everyone knows I am kindda screwed up right now.  I went to the psychiatrist today and found out that what I thought I had was just the tip of the iceberg.   It turns out that I am Bi Polar and am in need of a Mood Stabalizer Drug, not depressed like I originally thought.  I got my perscription today and will be filling (and starting it) tomorrow.  The psych said that my moods and actions on the anti-depressants reflect just how bi-polar I am.  She said that in my case the anti-depressants will work for 2 months and then stop because they aren't giving me the medication that I need.  Which luckily explains all the fatigue, insomnia, apathy, nausia, etc that I've been dealing with.  On the mood stabilizers I should level out again.

My visits to the therapist have helped a lot too.  Next week we're starting on my self esteem problems.  She said that I have to draw up a self esteem chart. =/  I have no idea what that is.  She said I have to come up with something good about myself that I haven't thought of yet.  When she asked me one good thing about myself, I told her that I have a great personality.  She agreed and said that I was off to a good start.   So, now I need to figure out something else good about myself.  Could be anything.  You guys have any ideas? =P Yeah, didn't think so. *wink*

I've been checking out the bento box community link and really like what I am seeing.  I think I'm gonna buy some stuff on ebay and make them myself.  They look like a lot of fun. ^_^

That's all for now folks! *BIG HUGS*

~Cara

Now Begins a new day.  I have decided to retire my old LJ and start this one.  Not sure if I wanna give it out or not.  May just keep it my own, at least for now.